I was reading about God. The author suggested that we shouldn’t be satisfied with our life here on Earth. We should realize that we want more that we long to go home and to see the face of God. I understand, but I don’t really agree with it.
God gave me this amazing gift. This life is full of experiences and although I’m not exactly sure what it all means, I have faith that there’s a reason for it and that this journey that I’m on is very meaningful. It isn’t about going home for me. This journey is about the journey itself. I know God is with me and that when I die, I’ll find my way to wherever I need to go, but for now in this moment, all I can feel is gratitude for this life He has given me. Sure, it feels like I am constantly struggling with sin, hunger, and all sorts of other things, but I think that ‘s part of the journey. I’m thankful for that struggle. I believe it’s part of God’s plan for me.
The author said something about not being satisfied until being able to see God’s face. I think what he meant was being able to truly be present with God. To really hear His voice and to truly see Him. Except, I don’t think that makes sense. For me the experience of God, as a human, to see with my eyes, to hear with my ears, to touch with my fingers that would be too overwhelming and frightening. I don’t know if I would be able to have the strength to do it. My human form isn’t enough. I catch glimpses and moments of God and I feel His presence and while I am alive on Earth, I am satisfied with that. When I die, I hope that whatever happens I will find a way to be with God, understand Him better, and be present with Him. I won’t need to see a face, hear a voice, or touch a body because my body will return to ashes. The way it should be. The way His plan for me is. I struggle all the time to have peace in my heart and faith in His plan for me. I know I’ll never understand it completely, but it ‘s okay. God has been present in my life for as long as I can remember. I will trust in the plan even if I can’t understand it because that’s faith. That’s all I need.
My faith saved me. May God’s peace reside in all of our hearts.
