We went on this short trip to spend some time with my niece and her husband. From the start of the trip up until now, my mind has been plagued by nightmarish thoughts of worst-case scenarios. Everything under the sun could possibly go wrong. I mean everything. We stopped at a point of interest where everyone got out of the car, except me. My next thought was of a speeding car coming by and hitting the car I was in. I had detailed thoughts of waking up in a hospital having been injured. I had thoughts of how my niece and her husband would get back home after their car was totaled. I could see it all in my mind’s eye.
These thoughts seem to get worse whenever I go on vacation and leave my house. I think I get worse feelings and thoughts because I feel a loss of control the further I am from my home base.
I am starting to ignore the thoughts because I know that they come out of my fear. I also know that I shouldn’t give into these feelings and thoughts of fear. They are just a distraction from God’s lights guiding me.
I know that at all times I need to have faith and put my worry and fear in God’s hands. I know that if I am in need God will be there for me. Even in the worst-case does happen, He will guide me through the storm.
So, instead of sticking close to home and never venturing outside, I take leaps of faith all the time. I trust in God, and I try to enjoy the life God gave me. I still have the thoughts and my days aren’t always great, but every day with God is better than the best day without God.
May faith saved me. May God’s peace reside in all of our hearts.
