I started to read a book on conspiracy theories. I have found that almost all of these theories boil down to people believing a person or group of people secretly trying to control their life or take something in their life. Most of the time, it doesn’t make sense. There’s no evidence to back up the theory.
The part that really gets to me though is that it isn’t that the theory has no foundation, the very premise has no foundation. The premise has two ideas. First that someone could secretly try to control someone. Yes, it is sadly true that people try to control each other all the time in our world, but in life, the reality is that no one has control. There’s very little that we can actually control in life. If a secret society even tried to exert control over people’s lives, then it would be an illusion. When it really matters the only thing each of us and really control is our own behavior and if we really understood that, then I imagine the world would be a much better place because we’d stop trying to control things we can’t.
The second part of the premise is someone could secretly take something away from us. Yes, it is sadly true our possessions, our sense of security, our freedom and even our own lives can be taken from us. The point is there are things in life that no one could ever take. No one can ever take God from me. No one can steal the love inside of my heart. No one can take the faith that I was born with and will have long after I breathe my last breath. I have my things that I have accumulated in my lifetime, but when I die, those things won’t go with me. None of those things really belong to me. To lose them during my lifetime would be difficult, but honestly, they are just things. They aren’t who I am. If I truly know my spirit, that’s something that no one can ever take.
I understand being worried about people wanting to control me. I understand being worried about people wanting to take all that belongs to me. However, when I think about what really matters to me, no one can control my spirit, nor can they contain it. It’s the only thing I had coming into this world, and it’ll be the only thing I’ll have when I leave it.
When I was in college, I remember feeling so lost and alone wishing for just one thing to hold onto so that I knew that I could be okay and make it to the next day. Now that I understand who I am, what God’s grace is, and why faith is so important. I know that I have my spirit to hold onto. I know that when I feel like I can’t, there’s nothing in this world that’ll going to help me, but that I can turn to God and I will find a way because He will lead me there. I don’t have all the answers and I never will, but it’s okay because I have faith.
My faith saved me. May God’s peace reside in all of our hearts.
