I drove to my office today for a meeting with my boss. I was surprised to realize that even though I am doing better with my anxiety, when I got into my car to drive my hands were still shaking. I found it scary to get out there into the real world and drive around other people.
I can’t explain why it happens and I’m not sure if there’s anything I can do about it, but I realize that I can’t let it stop me. When it happens, I am allowing myself to be aware of the feelings and to let myself feel them. I know it’s okay for me to be nervous. Not only is it okay, but it is a part of me and my journey. I don’t need to try to run away from it or stop it. I just need to let it happen and experience it. That’s exactly what I did today.
I let myself feel my shaking hands and racing heart. I acknowledged that I was feeling nervous. Then, I realized that God was with me, and I drove to my office knowing that what I was feeling physically was my body’s reaction, but with faith I would be okay. I am beginning to realize that God wants me to experience whatever life has in store for me, even anxiety, but at the same time, He wants me to trust in Him in everything I do. Everything in life for me all comes back to trust in Him. I can accomplish miracles and get through anything in life, if I truly trust in God.
My faith saved me. May God’s peace reside in all of our hearts.
