It rained today and my Beagle mix rescue kept peeing in the house. I was already having a bad day and as I was trying to clean up the mess, I broke one of my nails really bad. I had a migraine headache, too. I felt like it was one of those days where everything goes wrong. As I walked to the garage to get more cleaning supplies, I could fear the heat of anger rising in my chest and I really wanted to hit something, especially the dog that had caused the mess in the first place. I took a moment to stop and remember that she was a creature of God. I tried to remember that God would want me to act out of love in all situations. And then, I realized that at that moment, I wasn’t at that place. I wanted to be, but I was feeling upset and angry.
I didn’t hit anything, but I did put the dog outside for a few minutes. I think it’d be wonderful if I could be someone who never got upset or angry. It’d be great if I was always calm and peaceful constantly, but I think with OCD, migraines, and anxiety that isn’t going to happen. Even without those challenges, it isn’t going to happen. Even Jesus got angry in the Bible. Human beings are fallible, we are sinners, and we aren’t perfect.
I can’t be in perfect peace and harmony at all times, but the miracle of God is that I can learn to get there sometimes. He can fill my heart with love whenever I seek it. I just have to ask. If I recognize where I am at and my need for His help, then maybe I can find myself asking more often. Maybe when my dog gets me angry, I can remember that she is a creature of God and that I love her.
My faith saved me. May God’s peace reside in all of our hearts.
