I finished working for today and then received a call that my aunt had not activated an electronic piece of equipment that was sent to her. It required her making a phone call and speaking to an agent. I knew that would be difficult for her, so my husband and I went to her house and helped. Going to her house was the last thing I wanted to do, but I knew she needed my help.
Sometimes the unexpected comes up in life. This past weekend the unexpected was a tornado warning forcing me to shelter in a basement, today the unexpected was going to help my aunt, who know what unexpected event might come tomorrow.
These events really bother me because of my OCD. They happen and that feeling of “wrongness” in the world rears it’s ugly head. There’s not much I can do, except rely on faith. I find myself giving the unexpected and uncontrollable part of life to God. I put those things in His hands, and I try to move ahead. Honestly, I bitch and complain about it most of the time. I feel panic symptoms because of my OCD. However, I am trying to be better. I am trying to go with the flow more and to realize that the unexpected is just a part of life. I struggle, but I hope I am getting better. I hope that’s enough for God.
My faith saved me. May God’s peace reside in all of our hearts.
