The other day on social media, I read a hypothetical question. It essentially asked if there was a way to speak to someone who had died, who would you want to talk to? I thought about it for a long time and decided to not answer the question because I couldn’t think of a single person I would want to talk to.
Then, I asked my husband about the question. I knew of a person he would want to talk to. He surprised me. He said that he wouldn’t want to talk to that person because it would break his heart. It would just hurt too much.
When he gave me that answer, I realized that it isn’t a question about what I want; it’s a question about accepting God’s will and having faith in His plan. There are going to be many things that happen in my life that are going to cause me sorrow. I am going to wish that the events of my life didn’t turn out that way. One of the best examples I have is my father. Towards the end of his life, he has Alzheimer’s disease. There were frequent episodes when he got very confused and felt like his family was plotting against him. During those episodes he got very angry. I wish that he didn’t have to go through that, and I really don’t know if he understood what was happening to him in his last days. I accept that was God’s plan and His will. I don’t know what the greater picture is.
I can’t spend my life wishing for a life that turned out the way I think it should have been where my father didn’t have Alzheimer’s. I can’t spend my life being angry at God thinking He lets bad things happen to good people and He lets evil people prosper. My life would be wasted on wishful thinking and foolish anger. Instead, I choose to believe there is this big picture, a huge interwoven tapestry of life that includes billions of lives and spans hundreds of years and only a supreme being like God can truly understand how my little thread of a life fits into all of it. So, I decide to put my life in His hands, and I believe in His will and His plan for me. I know life isn’t meant to be all sunshine and rainbows. I know I am here to experience everything including pain and sorrow. I accept it willingly having total faith in God’s plan for me.
My faith saved me. May God’s peace reside in all of our hearts.
