I have been thinking a lot about online activity because I have been getting involved with social media with my writing. I have also been watching TV shows and documentaries that have to do with online activity. On the surface I don’t think there’s anything wrong with social media, but there’s something dangerous about it at least for me. It’s the anonymity.
When I interact with people through a telephone or in person, I feel an energy in them. It’s important to have that exchange. Feeling that energy makes a connection. For me, it is very scary. I have a hard time because the exchange of that energy can sometimes be very overwhelming. These last few years working remotely have been difficult, but it has also been helpful because I don’t have to worry about facing that exchange of energy as much.
When I interact with people online, I don’t feel that exchange, but I also don’t get that connection. It’s just not the same. It’s fake somehow and with that comes the freedom to act without consequences. If I put out a negative energy, then I don’t feel it flowing out into the world. Except, it does.
There’s something inside of me. I think of it as my OCD brain. I have to take a lot of life on faith because my OCD has me question my perception of the world. On this one, I have faith that whether or not I can feel that other person on the other end of the computer, my actions have consequences. If I am hateful, then I will breed hate. If I am loving, then I will set an example of love for the world. And it isn’t just the world, but it is myself as well. I am a product of my choices and reality. If I believe in love, light, and faith, then I can be a being of love, light and faith. If I choose a different path, then I won’t be able to live in love. It’s my choice to follow God and His love. It’s my faith.
My faith saved me. May God’s peace reside in all of our hearts.
