There’s a lot of people who suffer from migraines who have light sensitivity. For me, I seem to have more problem with sound. Today, my husband and I went the pharmacy to get a vaccine and they were really busy. We had to wait about forty minutes past our appointment time. I don’t think it would have been that bad, except that the pharmacy kept having their phone ring. However, they were so busy that instead of the phone ringing and they would answer it, what would happen is the phone would ring and keep ringing until the automated system would pick it up. This situation kept happening every couple of minutes. It was like sitting in the middle of a phone call center where no one was answering the phone.
After a while I truly felt like I couldn’t stand it. I got to the point where my head what in so much pain that I didn’t care, I went to the desk and was ready to tell them, I didn’t want to the vaccine any more, that I would come back later, and that I wanted my vaccine card back. However, when I went up there, she assured me that they were going to get to me in less than five minutes.
The interesting part of this story to me is that when I am calm I can remember to take things one day at a time or one hour at at time, one minute at a time, if necessary, but in this situation it all went out the window. I was in too much pain to think about one day at a time or to think about God or to just really think.
It’s one of those things that really brings me to my knees: pain. When it happens sometimes I can deal with it great and sometimes I just fall apart. I guess that is expected. None of us are perfect. I think it is interesting that most people think the problem of pain is that how an all powerful and benevolent God would allow such pain in our world. For me, I think the real problem of pain is how can a human being deal with their instinctual reaction to pain while at the same time act on the very real spiritual ideal of faith in God?
My faith saved me. May God’s peace reside in all of our hearts.
