I wrote yesterday about the lesson of being active in my life and choices instead of just a passive person. I also wrote about how my experience of my mother wasn’t what other people experienced. It made me contemplate the idea of good and evil. The good I do in my life can be evil to others. While I may try to live a good life no matter what I do, I am going to sin and hurt others somehow. Just by living in the time that I do, I am partially responsible for the pollution of the environment. I probably inadvertently have contributed to all kinds of evil endeavors without realizing it. In my book, ignorance isn’t an excuse. No one is innocent. Yet at the same time no one is truly evil. It all has to do with perspective.
I think about how God had to create evil for it to exist and how the devil is actually a fallen angel. God has knowledge of evil and Satan had knowledge of good. There’s a reason for it all. Dualities exist so that I can understand this physical universe, but if I want self-actualization then I have to transcend the dualities. If I see my mother from my perspective at one point in time, then yes, she is this horrible lying abusive woman. However, if I lose my perspective, if I look at her the way God would at every point in her life and from Heaven, then she becomes something beautiful.
It’s so strange, I do what God tells me to do because I am faithful. I love because He tells me to love. I believe because He tells me to believe. I forgive because He tells me to forgive. Yet every once in a while, He grants me the Grace to see through His eyes and understand the why. And just now, I understand why I should see the light of God in everyone. It isn’t because I have all this love and understanding in my heart. It’s because God transcends all of it. He can see better than I can. If I could only see, the way He does looking down from Heaven, then my heart would be filled with so much love and forgiveness, life would be easy. So, I have to remember His perspective on the world and try to do as He says because He really does see the world better than I do.
My faith saved me. May God’s peace reside in all of our hearts.
