I am falling. Yesterday, I was working, and I just got brain fog so bad that I had to stop working. Today, I got a huge anxiety attack, and then my head started to hurt so bad I couldn’t stand it. I think it is a combination of stressors.
I don’t want to have my mother in my life. I understand that she needs support, but I also know that there needs to be a balance. I created a distance and detachment because I needed a healthy relationship and just because she is starting to have failing health that doesn’t change my need for a healthy relationship.
The other stressor is that accident on Saturday. I know that I hit the back of my head on the seat. I know that it wasn’t that bad, but my head is very sensitive ever since the spinal tap. Maybe I just don’t have the same cushion of spinal fluid that I should have. I just know that I am having a cluster migraine. It is on one side of my head. It is causing my eye to tear up. It is causing me to feel sick and anxious.
I was talking to my husband about it. He gave me some great advice. He told me that it would pass. The one great constant about life is that it is constantly changing. This week, I am falling and stumbling through darkness. I am praying for God’s guidance. I have faith that somehow, I will find my way out of the darkness when the time is right.
My faith saved me. May God’s peace reside in all of our hearts.
