I have written about feeling like an alien before. I don’t feel like I really fit in with anyone. I hear the sentiment all the time that people just want to feel like they belong. That’s why when they are at sporting events they get caught up in the moment. They scream and yell for their team. At a rock concert, everyone claps and sways to the music feeling like they are a part of the experience. I understand that concept, but I never got caught up in the moment. When everyone is clapping to the music, I just don’t feel like it. Joining in on mob behavior never did give me a sense of belonging. I don’t know if there’s anything that will give me that sense of belonging.
I don’t know if that’s what human beings really need. When I go outside in the dead of night, and I look up at the stars. I see this vast universe that is bigger than my mind could possibly fathom and I know that I really don’t care if I belong to the fandom of the local basketball team. When I look up at the sky, I want to know that I am not alone in this universe.
Several years ago, my husband and I went to the Grand Canyon. We stood on the edge of this huge canyon and took in its beauty. For me, it wasn’t as breath-taking as I thought it was going to be, but I was awe-struck by how small I was. My eyes weren’t capable of seeing the whole thing. It was huge and yet it was so enormous, I couldn’t see it all. At that moment, I didn’t care, if I was part of a community or had a sense of belonging, I wanted to know that I wasn’t alone and that I was as meaningless as a speck of sand on a beach.
The light of God is within me, and I know I am not alone. He will carry me through all the days of my life. That is a wonderful revelation, but so much more is the idea that God’s light is in everyone. Whenever I see someone else, I am reminded that I’m not alone. God gave me billions of brothers and sisters to walk on this earth with me. I might never feel like I belong, but I will never feel alone. All I have to do is look around and I will see God’s light in each of my brothers and sisters in Christ. They are my companions as I walk my path. They are living miracles that demonstrate God’s love for me and all humanity.
My faith saved me. My God’s peace reside in all of our hearts.
