There’s this phenomenon that people talk about lately called brain fog. I have it sometimes when I get migraine headaches. The best way I can describe it is that my thinking slows down and whatever is going on in my brain somehow doesn’t translate into my actions and words. I really don’t like the way it feels. I can’t compare it to being tired because when I am tired, I might act slower or impaired. With brain fog, I feel like my brain is working just fine, I just can’t seem to get my body to match my brain’s thoughts. The closest thing that I can compare it to is being high on drugs. I have had several times in my life when I needed to be on pain drugs. When the drugs worked, I had this horrible feeling of being buried within my own body. I could feel everything, and my thoughts were clear, but I just couldn’t get myself to express my thoughts and feelings to anyone because the drugs were somehow suppressing me.
Today, I felt like I suffered from a spiritual fog. I was on a phone call with computer support and the technician wasn’t very good. I was getting very frustrated. When I look back on the phone call, I should have remembered that the person was my sister in Christ and had the light of God within her. Yet I was so caught up in the moment, I didn’t think about it. I’m starting to realize that I often have this spiritual fog. Although I have come to understand how I should see others, I often forget to practice what I have learned.
I guess that the best way to “cure” my spiritual fog is the practice mindfulness. I need to remind myself more and more about the light of God. Instead of just taking it for granted, I need to seek it out. After all I can’t expect life to just drop itself in my lap, can I?
My faith saved me. May God’s peace reside in all of our hearts.
