A few years ago, my mom decided that she wasn’t going to let me help her with anything. No matter how much I would offer to help her from doing her grocery shopping to taking her to get vaccinated for COVID-19, she would just blow me off and act like I wasn’t even worth listening to. Today she called in need again and no matter what was said, she still wouldn’t accept my husband’s or my help.
There’s not a single thing I can do about it. It is the classic Serenity Prayer. Better yet, the saying about leading a horse to water, but not being able to make it drink. The only thing I have any control over in this situation is my own behavior. I can’t change my mother’s behavior. I can’t understand her behavior. If someone looks at the situation and incorrectly presumes, I am a bad daughter, there’s nothing I can do about that either. The only thing I can do is have my own response to the situation. It doesn’t make sense to let her behavior bring me down. Why should I get upset about something I can’t control? Instead, I put the situation in God’s hands.
I can’t live my life worried about what other people think about me. I can’t live my life worried about some woman who wouldn’t let me help her if she needed it anyway. I wish things were different and I pray for guidance every day, but I also pray for God’s will to be done. As I says all the time, I may not know His plan, but I have faith in the plan. I don’t know why my mom is acting this way, but I will accept her and love her anyway because God commands it. I just won’t let her hurt me anymore; I’ve learned to let it go.
My faith saved me. May God’s peace reside in all of our hearts.
