I was reading something that said the translation of the Bible that talked about the “patience” of Job really was more about the “endurance” of Job. I enjoyed the idea of this new translation. The story of Job is about how a good man who was doing everything right suffered in life anyway. The story illustrates to me how having God in my life doesn’t mean everything is going to be perfect or that bad things won’t come into my life.
I am living proof that someone can try to do everything right. The effort won’t make a difference. I will always be a flawed human being and a sinner. Sorrow will find me no matter where I go, but so will all kinds of other experiences as well.
I have to accept that in my lifetime, I am going to suffer from illness. (I just don’t know how bad or much many times.) I accept that many of my friends and family will pass away, and I will suffer the pain of loss, but I will have also experienced the joy of loving them. I accept that I have OCD and anxiety, yet I also know that as I walk my path, God is with me and even if I feel afraid, I have nothing to fear because I am not alone.
I don’t know what tomorrow will bring. I always hated that song, “The sun will come out Tomorrow.” I hate hearing it. I don’t believe that tomorrow is going to amazing, wonderful, and full of sunshine. That’s not me. I do believe that God’s light is inside my heart and whatever comes, nothing will extinguish that light. I hope to have the endurance of Job because I carry that light inside me.
My faith saved me. May God’s peace reside in all of our hearts.
