I was listening to a movie on TV as background noise and I heard a character say something about losing faith. I know that there’s such a concept as losing faith in God. However, I can’t help wonder if it is possible to lose faith. I wonder if it is anything like being in love.
People often talk about falling in and out of love. I think it is possible to fall in and out of love, but I think when people talk about it they are talking about that first period of infatuation and it is possible to have that off and on with the same person for years. I know that I have been married for over twenty years and experience periods like that all the time. I also know that regardless of those period, every day I chose to love my husband. I make that choice every day and it isn’t going to change whether or not I am in a state of being in love with him.
I think faith is the same way. Sure, I have periods where I feel this amazing spiritual connection with God. I have periods where there are signs and coincidences all over the place. I just feel His presence in my life. However, there are times when I don’t feel anything at all. Everything just feels ordinary. I don’t see any signs. There’s nothing extraordinary and I am feel a lot of doubt about myself and my life. During those times, I choose faith. It’s when I don’t feel the presence of God or see any signs that my faith is strongest. I have no real reason to believe and yet I choose faith anyway. It isn’t a feeling. It is a choice. It isn’t a state of being for me. It is who I choose to be.
My faith saved me. May God’s peace reside in all of our hearts.
