There was this day during the pandemic when I remember realizing that even though I had been going to work every day and pushing myself to not let my OCD and anxiety get in the way of my everyday life. The problem was that although I was doing that I was living with a huge amount of anxiety and taking anti-anxiety meds to get through it.
Today, I thought about that day and realized that my life has changed more than I could have imagined. I am working at home and don’t have to push myself as much that way, but I am not longer hiding from the anxiety with medication. More than that, I have reached out to more people in my life. I even joined a writer’s group and started to share my writing with other people. I have found myself being courageous and really pushing myself to experience those things in life that cause me anxiety.
I guess after all these years of having the problem, I found myself wanting to take a huge leap of faith. I wanted to believe that experiencing the anxiety was far better than not experiencing life. It hasn’t been very long, but just looking back in this short time, I believe that having faith is worth it.
My faith saved me. May God’s peace reside in all of our hearts.
