Today, I have to deal with a difficult situation. I am stuck in a situation in which I have no control. There’s absolutely nothing I can do about a problem with a computer until someone else deals with an update that I can’t do. The side of me that has OCD feels so much anxiety that it is almost unbearable. I just want to be able to fix the problem and move on. I can’t seem to stop thinking about it and let it go. Then, there’s another side of me, that says I have to learn to let go of things that I can’t control.
It is something easier said than done. I find trying to give up my worries when I just can’t stop thinking about it. It is especially difficult on days like today. I really like to write my post on my blog on days like today. People seem to think that when you give your life to God and you accept Jesus Christ as your Lord and Saviour or when you accept any god as your god, that somehow magically your life is going to get better and everything is going to go right. I think that is one of the craziest ideas people have about religion. ‘
On the day I asked God into my life, it was a day that I expected everything in my life to come crashing down into pieces. I expected that I was going to lose everything. I thought I was going to lose my future, my education, my pets, my possessions, and my freedom. I didn’t expect that God was going to make it all better. I just wanted to know that if I chose to lose everything that He wouldn’t abandon me. He never did. Somehow, I didn’t lose as much as I thought I would and things worked out better than I could have ever dreamed. However, the lesson is still true.
Life isn’t easy. The world is full of pain and evil. I am imperfect and a sinner and I am going to struggle with that my entire life. Accepting God into my heart didn’t change any of that. Accepting God into my heart just meant that I wouldn’t have to face any of that alone.
My faith saved me. May God’s peace reside in all of our hearts.
