There’s a song that I like to listen to that essentially says whenever I do anything and what I do, I am praying. I always loved that song because it means that in everything I do in my life, I can be living my life in faith.
When I was eighteen, I started wearing a cross whenever I left the house. I really didn’t care if it was something anyone noticed because it wasn’t for anyone else to see. The cross was for me. Every morning, it reminded me that God was with me. During the day, whenever I saw it or felt it against my skin, I would be reminded that no matter where I went, God was there. When my day was done, and I returned the cross to my jewelry box, I was reminded that God was will me all day long. It wasn’t something just for me. I didn’t care if anyone else noticed. I have been doing it for over thirty years now. I have told a few people about it, but I really don’t care if anyone knows or care about it.
Several years ago, I started to write this blog and I wanted it to help my writing career. I thought it would be great to develop an online platform. Except, that’s not what happened. Instead, I found that it helped me to develop a habit to write every single day. More importantly, this time is my time to meditate and reflect on God every day. Sure, I used to pray, and I still do pray. Those prayers are wonderful, and they mean something to me, but this is prayer in a different way.
When I write about God, I find myself trying to understand who God is, I try to understand who I am, and most importantly I try to understand what faith really means to me. Today I was talking to my husband about it. Knowing God is full of paradoxes. God can see me at all the times in my life and yet I have free will. God can love all of his children equally and yet we can each have a personal relationship with God. The Bible is filled with contradictions and yet it is filled with spiritual truth. Faith is about belief when these paradoxes exist because it isn’t about logic, reason, or proof. That’s the part that the scientist and atheist forget. Faith is about taking that leap and believing just because deep down inside there’s something that tells me to believe.
So, I find myself writing every day. I don’t really care who reads because it isn’t about creating an online presence anymore, is it?
My faith saved me. May God’s peace reside in all of our hearts.
