I am reading a book that talks about myth, philosophy, and religion. There are some really deep ideas in it. Yet one of the parts that gets to me is that some of the most difficult concepts were some of the ideas that I had when I was a kid. It makes me wonder if maybe I should have been a great philosopher that could have changed the world. Then, I realize that if I have faith in all the concepts that I say I do, then my life has gone exactly the way God planned it.
I started to think about how I have always felt like an alien on earth, like I didn’t exactly belong here. There’s been times that I wondered if maybe I really didn’t belong. Then, there came a time when I thought maybe it was part of a mental disorder like Asperger’s disorder. However, the more that I learn and grow in my faith, I start to think it could be something completely different.
God is all things and no things all at the same time. He exists beyond the constraints of time and space. His understanding of the universe and life for me is incomprehensible and yet, I have the light of God inside of me and I am created in His image. I have faith in this plan that I will never know or understand. All things are possible for me and yet, I still have so much that I don’t know. Maybe I have always felt like I didn’t exactly belong because I’ve always known somehow deep inside that life is a paradox. If I found myself totally invested in the physical world, then I wouldn’t be in touch with the unknowable and knowable spiritual side of myself and the world around me. That part of life require faith because there’s no proof that it exist, but it is the part of life where miracles, coincidences, and most importantly love comes from.
My faith saved me. May God’s peace reside in all of our hearts.
