I had something weird happen in the last couple of weeks. There’s this movie that I thought starred Ewan McGregor. I was talking to my husband about it, and it turns out the actor is really Kenneth Branagh. It may not seem like a big thing to most people, but for me, it felt like someone pulled the rug out from under me. All my memories of that movie are now messed up because what I believed to be true isn’t right.
Then today it happened again. When I was a little girl, the TV show All in the Family was really popular. I remember all the characters and the actors who played them, but I don’t really remember much more because it was on when I was just a toddler. I found some old rerun recently and there were all the familiar faces. Then I saw one name Rob Reiner. It turns out that this actor and director that I knew well was the same actor I knew as “Meathead”. I actually had to look up on the internet images of him so that I could somehow reconcile in my mind that the young actor I had in my mind was the same person that I knew as the older actor and director. Even after seeing the pictures, I am still having trouble realizing that they are the same person.
These events are trivial, and they really aren’t going to change my life in any significant manner, but they illustrate that sometimes it is possible to not connect things together or to just be plain wrong about a fact in life and when I realize it, it can have a profound effect on my life, and it makes reality feel very shaky. I think the worst one for me was when I discovered that my family wasn’t going to be there for me the way I thought they said they would. I also found that when the world feels like it is built on sand, that’s when I need God and faith the most.
I could be wrong about everything. I could even be wrong about God. However, as long as I exist, believe in Him and love Him, then God is. That’s something that no one can prove wrong or refute.
My faith saved me. My God’s peace reside in all of our hearts.
