I suffer from these periods of chills and being cold. The doctors have no idea what it could be. Some say it is an aura of migraine headache. Others say it is perimenopause and yet other say that I am just crazy. I just know that it is around eight degrees outside, it is around seventy-two degrees inside. I am wearing wool socks, thick sweatpants, and three layers of thick shirts. I am still freezing cold. I feel chills going through my body where I am shaking, and it literally feels painful.
I have the most difficult time describing it to anyone, but last night I was talking to my husband, and I finally made a breakthrough. I told him to imagine the house being without air conditioning for several days. The heat would be oppressive and make you feel terribly uncomfortable. No matter what you did to get any relief, you wouldn’t be able to escape the heat. You would be continuously sweating, and it would be your body reminding you that you were hot. The whole situation would put you in a horrible mood that would get worse and worse until the air conditioner was fixed, or the weather changed. The only difference is that instead of being hot, I am cold. Instead of heat being oppressive, cold is oppressively making me uncomfortable. I can’t escape it. And instead of my body sweating to remind me that I am hot, my body shakes and trembles to remind me that I am cold. I still wonder where the idea of hell being hot came from because for me Heaven would be a very warm place and hell is freezing cold.
It’s been going on four days now and there’s a new low-pressure system sweeping across the U.S. today. My barometric pressure sensitive head felt it. I know it isn’t a punishment or a test. It is what it is. But my brain is foggy, my head hurts, and I am so cold. And the only thing I have is a belief that God is with me and that somehow it will be okay.
My faith saved me. May God’s peace reside in all our hearts.
