My doctor gave me a vitamin to take once a week. It upset my stomach. So, we tried to find a way for me to take it some other way. I have been trying to take it every other week in combination with another medication for my stomach. It was working okay, until today. My stomach got so upset, I was literally lying down on the bathroom floor in a fetal position with stomach cramps.
The fact that I don’t feel good today is what I hate about Valentine’s Day. Everyone has all these expectations about the day. If you aren’t in a relationship, then you have to justify why you aren’t and try to feel good about being alone. If you are in a relationship, then you have to celebrate being in love and meeting the expectations of your partner. The fact is love is something that happens every day. It shouldn’t be something that I celebrate on just one special day each year.
Every day of my marriage, I have woken up and made a choice to love my husband and I will do it for the rest of my life. It isn’t always the easy choice to make, sometimes he drives me crazy and other times we are getting along, but I know the worst day with him is always ten times better that the best day without him. So, I make that choice to love him every single day.
I also wake up every morning and I make a choice to follow God’s commandments: to love God, to love myself, and to love others as I love myself. This choice is really difficult, too. It’s a challenge to love myself sometimes. I know all my faults and sins. I know the real me and how difficult I am to love. I also know how difficult it is to love others. There are a lot of people out there who I don’t agree with and there are people who do horrible evil acts, but I have to remind myself that I shouldn’t judge them, and I should love them because they are God’s children.
On this Valentine’s Day, I just want to remind myself that love is a choice and it’s one that should be made every single day. God commands it and I have faith in that commandment.
My faith saved me. May God’s peace reside in all of our hearts.
