I feel like a I am taking a walk in darkness lately. There’s lots of things changing around me. I am feeling really out of control of many different aspects of my life like work, family, etc. I am feeling more anxiety than usual due to barometric pressure and because I don’t know anyone with that problem I am feeling especially alone.
There’s two things that seem to be right in my face life lessons. The first one is that I keep coughing, choking, and losing my voice. Some part of God or the universe or whatever inside of me is trying to tell me that I have a voice and it is getting buried. I need to find a way to nurture that voice and use it because whether or not I believe it, my voice has importance and fits somewhere in all of this. The second one is that although I realize I can only control my own behavior, right now I am having a difficult time practicing what I preach. I feel frustration and anger about lots of things lately and when I really look at them and examine my conscience it’s because I want to control someone else’s behavior and get them to act the way I think they should act instead of just accepting them the way they are. Tonight, I might be figuratively coughing up a lung, and walking in the valley, but I pray for God to give me the strength to give my worries up to Him so that my tomorrow will feel lighter.
My faith saved me. May God’s peace reside in all of our hearts.
