It has been one of those days when I know that hell is cold. I have spent several days with a low body temperature and today was really bad because no matter what I did I just couldn’t get myself to warm up. It probably means that I am going to get a migraine headache soon. The strange thing about it is that since I am not feeling any other symptoms of migraine, I can’t take rescue meds and there’s little I can do to prevent it.
The whole situation reminds me of Cassandra. She a woman from Greek mythology. She was given the gift of second sight; she could predict the future. The only problem was that no one would believe her predictions. There wasn’t anyway for anyone to escape the fate that she foretold. Even when she predicted her own murder, there wasn’t anything she could do about it.
I have been having discussions with my husband about Cassandra because I think her story is fascinating, but my husband thinks that very few modern day readers would know who she is. I wouldn’t disagree with him, but at the same time, I still look to the ancient Greeks for heroes because they had such great imaginations to describe the human condition in such inventive ways.
Seeing fate coming straight for me and not being able to do anything about it is such a familiar situation that almost anyone can relate to it, but Cassandra’s story is so compelling because she could foretell the future.
These cold spells could be almost anything. The doctors don’t have a clue, but it is possible that they are a warning sign of migraine. However, even if they are, there’s not much I can do. So, what’s the point? Is someone up there laughing seeing how much I can suffer with chills? There’s no chance in my mind.
Every challenge in my life is part of a greater picture. It all fits together. I just can’t see it because I am too close. I am standing within the picture. God stands and sees the whole picture and knows the plan. He loves me and isn’t laughing. I have faith. I suffer the cold and know that headache is coming. And when I pray, I ask God for help and strength, but most of all I ask for His will to be done because I know His plan is the best thing for me. My fate isn’t something I need to escape; it is God’s will.
My faith saved me. May God’s peace reside in all of our hearts.
