I am having a difficult time because of ear ringing. I think I might have an ear infection of some sort, but it is causing me to feel sick. I am dizzy and have a headache. I don’t feel like myself. Worst of all, I don’t know what I can do to fix it.
It’s that feeling of being dragged into a tunnel into a dark place and feeling like the light is disappearing. And instead of just wanting to plunge into darkness, I want to hold on to the little light left that I can see. I don’t know what to do, so I am just going to let in take me and I know that I am going to fall apart in the next few days. I know it’s going to feel horrible and everything is going to be overwhelming, but there’s nothing I can do to stop it.
I wrote about this just the other day. It isn’t easy. I don’t want to just relax into this feeling sick and having this ringing in my ear. Yet, I know that having ear infections is a part of life. It’s part of the experience and even though it sucks, I need to be brave and not run away from it.
So, I’ll face having a panic attack and losing it. I’ll be going into this dark tunnel and know that I won’t be able to see the light at the other side. And no matter how bad I feel, I’ll hope because I know that God won’t leave me.
My faith saved me. May God’s peace reside in all of our hearts.
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