I have been feeling low this week because I haven’t felt like I am getting much accomplished. I’ve been feeling lost because I feel more like a novice at writing and tutoring than I ever have before. I had so much momentum last week and this week it felt like everything came crashing down.
Then, I went to social media. I have joined a couple of support groups. I never liked them because I find the whole social media thing false, but the weirdest incidents have occurred. I am finding people that I feel like supporting. They seem to be going through struggles and feeling a little hopeless. I have tried to let them know that they aren’t alone and I have tried to let them know I have faced the same struggles and made it through them.
I feel the strangest thing. One of the support groups is for Autism. They said that autism spectrum people are the ones that are always the ones that feel like the odd ones out. However, on this support group, I feel like the odd one out. My posts are different from the other posts. I have a sense of empathy and understanding that I don’t see in other people and I really don’t see in the people in this support group. Maybe it is social media or maybe I truly am that alien person who is unique even among the oddballs?
I don’t know what to think anymore. So, today all I can do is pray for God’s guidance.
My faith saved me. May God’s peace reside in all of our hearts.
