A few days ago, I wrote about some of the people I encountered on social media. These people complained that the people around them didn’t behave the way they asked them to, and it caused them great distress due to their disorders. They couldn’t understand how the people in their lives could act that way. I wrote about how it was classic Serenity Prayer being able to understand what a person can control in their life and what they can’t control.
Yesterday, my husband confronted me with a similar situation. I have to admit, I was tired. I had only slept four hours. I felt horrible and when I got the situation, I felt like crying and having a meltdown. To be totally candid, I did have a little meltdown. However, I also did exactly what I have been writing about. I talked to my husband. I told him how I was feeling. I told him that I felt like he was making decisions about our home life that directly impacted me without talking to me about it. I didn’t think that was in my best interest considering my disorders, but more importantly because our marriage is based on a partnership. When we work as a team, we don’t make major decisions without making them together. I thought about the situation and I told him about what I thought I could control and I gave him a compromise. I took control of what I could. When I took control over what I could, it made me feel better. Life is messy, we can’t control everything. I understand that, but if I learn to own what I can control, then life is manageable. Thank God for helping me to learn that lesson and continue to learn it.
My faith saved me. May God’s peace reside in all of our hearts.
