I spent yesterday learning more about autism. I found out many things that I didn’t know, and it made me look at my life from a different perspective. I felt a little hurt and angry because there were so many signs that I was struggling, and my parents and teachers just didn’t follow through and try to help me. However, I realize that I am not alone. There are many people like me who went under the radar. There are probably many more who have learned to cope and never understand their brain and how it functions.
The best part is that my husband told me that whether or not I have autism, nothing about it changes how he sees me. I am still the same person no matter what. And that fits with what I wrote yesterday, no matter how my brain works, I am exactly the person that God intended me to be. If there’s something that helps me understand myself and how my brain works better, then that’s great, but I need to remember that even though these things are called “disorders” or “neurodivergent”, they don’t define me.
This situation is the time when I remember the first commandment that I should hold God above all others. Being a child of God is what defines me first, these other things might help me understand how I function, but God defines me. The categorization of brain functions is a man-made construct, but my faith is based in God’s love.
My faith saved me. May God’s peace reside in all of our hearts.
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