My husband did something today that was thoughtless. He put something in our car the wrong way and caused some things to topple over and spill. I got upset because I felt like he should have known better and when it happened, I told him so.
The thing is that in the last few weeks, I am learning more and more that instead of getting upset and angry about how other people act, I should be trying to find patience and understanding in my heart. I don’t want to give the impression that it’s not okay to get upset. It is perfectly okay for me to feel any emotions that I want to feel. However, at the same time, I also need to be able to find patience and understanding for others.
For example, take today’s incident. If I had made a thoughtless mistake, I would expect my husband to be upset, but at the same time, I know that he is always very patient and understanding with me. He would forgive me and move on quickly. I appreciate that about him and so, I would hope that I could learn to do that same. I know that I hold on to things longer because of the way my brain works, but I think that I could try because I know that’s what God wants from me. I have learned that as long as I try, God usually shows me that even those things that I find difficult become easier to do.
It’s such an amazing miracle that I have found. If I fight life, then I struggle more with things, but when I embrace my life and let it flow over me, even those things that were difficult somehow come to me easier. God is always there and will always guide me through life. If I open myself to his guidance, it’s amazing how much life flows over me like water falling.
Just now, as I am writing, I remembering that over thirty years ago, I went to go visit a friend. We went for a walk and visited a waterfall. Ever since then, whenever, I needed to think of a peaceful place, I would picture a waterfall, especially my memory of that waterfall. I never understood why waterfalls were special to me until just this moment. Waterfalls are a symbol of life for me. It’s how life works, the waterfalls and I can’t stop it. I can just let it flow over me and have faith that I can survive and endure it. I know I will because God will be with me. After all, that’s why I was baptized and confirmed with water. It was how I promised my fidelity to God before my community. Water is life.
My faith saved me. May God’s peace reside in all of our hearts.
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