I think about achievements that other people have made and then I look at my own life and I feel horrible because it feels like I am not getting anywhere. It is the same with my writing. Every time I think I am writing well, I find something else that I need to improve on, so either all the work I have done isn’t good enough or I need to go back and work on it all over again. It’s that feeling of one step forward and two steps back.
The problem is I really can’t deal with it well. But then I think about how comparing my life to anyone else just makes things horrible. My life was never meant to be like anyone else’s life. When I really look at my life, I have made great strides, it just is that I haven’t made them in a way that is noticeable to anyone.
I decided to take sometime off of work to really concentrate on my writing and I have been doing that, but National Writing Month is coming up. And I think if I really concentrate by the end of January, I could have three novels and some short stories in good shape. I just need to stop worrying about contributing to society by making money the way that I have always been taught to do.
I want to believe that miracles can happen, so now it is my chance to actually take a leap of faith and see that it does. I pray for God to guide me and to also help me to write the best that I can.
My faith saved me. May God’s peace reside in all of our hearts.
