There’s many people looking forward to a new year right now. I was thinking if I could have anything I want, would I really want it? I know it seems like a crazy question at first, but there’s something that happens when I write a story. I will write an entire novel and will be very happy with the result. Then, I will take a step back for about a month or so, and work on other projects. When I get back to my original novel, I will see all these things that I want to change.
If I could have anything I want, I think that after I had sometime to step back for a while, I wouldn’t be so happy with what I got. For example, if I could have anything, I would love to have enough money to not have to work. The only problem with that is that work really gives my life structure. Even if I had lots of money, I don’t ever want to stop working because I need that sense of structure and purpose.
So, what do I really want? I want what is best for me. The problem is I can’t see the big picture. I can’t see my future. Instead I have to have faith. I pray and I ask God for His will to be done. I don’t ask for what I want, but for what God wills. It may not be what I think I want; it may even make life fee like hell for a while, but I have faith that God in His infinite knowledge will guide me in what is best for me even if it is a struggle and even if it is painful.
My faith saved me. May God’s peace reside in all of our hearts.
