In a few days, I will start a new job, and I will also start a new writing challenge to finish a novel in thirty days. Both of these are going to be difficult endeavors. I feel like instead of the struggle to achieve falling on my ability, the true struggle to achieve is going to come down to my belief and faith in myself.
In both cases, I know that I can achieve the goal, but deep down inside of me when I think about what is coming, there is a tiny seed of doubt inside. That seed of doubt feels like a twinge of anxiety inside of my chest. I feel it and I know that if I pay attention to it, then it can grow. If I pay enough attention to it, then I can convince myself that a possibility of failure exists. That possibility can destroy my faith.
At the same time, when I feel that twinge of anxiety inside of my chest, I can go in a different direction. I can remember this vow that I made with God. I said that I would never let fear keep me from doing anything as long as He was at my side. So, I can acknowledge the fear, but at the same time, surrender it to God knowing that His strength will guide me through whatever is to come. Whenever I feel scared or afraid, I know that I am not brave, strong, or courageous enough. I am just an imperfect human being. Yet if I just turn to God and surrender to Him my life, I know that somehow no matter what life gives me, I will be able to get through it. I don’t have to have faith in myself. God believes in me. I just need to have faith in God.
My faith saved me. May God’s peace reside in all of our hearts.
