Today I saw a play performed by some college students. The experience reminded me of going to see a play when I was in college over thirty years ago. I could imagine what life felt like for those student actors because I remembered what life felt like for me as a student in the audience some thirty years ago.
I would have loved to impart to them everything I know from being thirty years older, but I also know that everything I know from being thirty years older really wouldn’t make a difference. The experience I have had isn’t something I can tell someone about, sure I can share my experience, but whatever lies ahead for those students that I saw tonight can’t be told to them; it is something that they need to experience for themselves. I know that they are going to have some wonderful highs and horrible lows, but I feel enthusiastic about it all because I know that being able to experience life is a wonderful gift.
The entire situation got me thinking about how I am not the same person I was thirty years ago. Yet, God sees me at all the times in my life. I really can’t understand how God sees me without time as a construct, but when I have experiences like this one, I feel like I get a glimpse of what it is like. I feel like would be a really wonderful way to experience myself and my life. I think that because He can see me at all the times of my life, He sees me as more than just a sum of each second of my life. If only I could do that, I might understand all the secret of the universe and I might just be able to love myself more than I could ever imagine.
My faith saved me. May God’s peace reside in all of our hearts.
