A little while ago, I got very upset about the elections, I find that I am slowly starting to accept it. In my writing group, I see that there are other people who have had some of the same difficulties that I have had. Part of my healing is knowing that I am not alone.
The biggest part of healing and acceptance though comes from my faith. If someone had told me about needing healing and acceptance from my faith this way a month ago, I would have thought I would need my faith because I needed to have hope. However, that wasn’t it. I need faith to teach me about the sin of pride.
I found myself believing in God’s plan for me, but only to a certain extent. Then, I thought it was in my hands. As I learned after the election, having faith in God means that no matter what happens, I have to believe that God is going to show me the right path to take.
My big question is: If I lived during the time of Hitler, would I just sit back and let it happen? What could I do? I know that question makes me sound weak and powerless, but the truth is I am weak and powerless without God. And I never once asked the question: If I lived during the time of Hitler, what would God lead me to do?
So, now I face times that may be very difficult, and I am very scared that many people will suffer and die. I’ve wondered: what can I do? And I don’t know because I feel weak and powerless. Yet today, when I finally see myself as being prideful in my fear, I realize that I have been asking the wrong questions. I am not strong or powerful. I don’t have courage. There’s not much I can do, but miracles can happen with God. My answer has been there all along. I need to pray and ask God for guidance. He will show me the path He wants me to take. He will give me strength and courage to do His will and to be His servant. I have faith in that. I pray today for God’s guidance and for my continued faith in His plan for me that I remember that I don’t need move mountains, I just need to follow Him.
My faith saved me. May God’s peace reside in all of our hearts.
