As I find myself on this journey through life, I realize that it isn’t just one simple journey. It’s many journeys. There’s the journey I am taking with my husband sharing our life together and the many wonderful and not so wonderful adventures that we will take together. There’s the journey I will take in my professional and educational life. There’s the journey I will take in weight loss and health learning how to take care of my physical body as I grow older, and the body slowly starts to fall apart. There’s a journey I will take artistically as I learn to express myself through writing. There’s a journey that I will take spiritually and mentally as I discover what this life means to me. And most importantly, I take a faith journey. It’s the one journey that started long before I became me, and it won’t ever end.
I think this journey began when life began and as I find my tiny part in the journey, I will come to understand God and His grand plan for me. The older I get the more I really don’t know. The questions I have always had inside of me only seem to get deeper. And I wonder all the time why other people don’t have a problem like I do. It’s like they can’t ask those questions.
Maybe they do what I do and they just do think about it because it is just to scary to conceive of all the possible answers. All I know is that it is possible nothing could be real. Everything could be an illusion or just some dream. My only solace is my knowledge of God. Even if everything else isn’t real, I know God is. I don’t know how I know. I just know.
I wish sometimes that everything comes be like that. It would be great to just know some of the answers, but it doesn’t work that way. So, instead I rely on God, and I take these journeys and I hope that they will turn out well. Or at least I hope that I enjoy the journey that I take. I have learned one important thing in life. The destination isn’t the important part; it’s being able to enjoy the journey that counts. If you can’t enjoy taking the adventure to get where you want to go, then you are missing out on the best part.
My faith saved me. May God’s peace reside in all of our hearts.
