I found myself traveling today. As usual I suffered from anxiety, but I decided to plan ahead, and I wanted to believe that I could handle it. I didn’t think that I wasn’t going to feel anxious. I knew I would. I just decided that when I did feel anxious, I would remind myself that it was going to be okay. And today somehow it was, even though there were some very difficult points along the way.
The worse one was when the second leg of our flight was taking off my PTSD took hold and everything seemed extra loud. There wasn’t anything I could do, so I just let it happen until my husband could get my earplugs for me. The strangest coincidence occurred. When the flight took off, my phone’s music player started to play a song called “Awesome God”. This day has been full of coincidences and signs. One of the best was when the first leg of our flight took off, my music player started playing “Don’t Be Afraid.”
I know that God is with me and even more than that I know that He keeps giving me subtle signs to let me know that I am not alone. I keep being reminded again and again that life is meant to be experienced fully, not just the good parts, but everything. I hope that I have to courage, endurance, and faith to remember God’s message on my life’s journey.
My faith saved me. May God’s peace reside in all of our hearts.
