The other day I was writing that I was created perfectly imperfect with an OCD brain. I know my brain is much more than that, but OCD is part of that. Today I had to take the day off of work because I had a horrific migraine headache. It is the second bad one in two weeks. As I sat down to write today, I suddenly thought that maybe my head is not only wired for OCD, but also for migraines.
I know that the first thought in most people’s minds is how could an all powerful, all mighty, God who loves me so much create me with a brain that has painful migraine headaches? More so, how could I believe that? My answer is simple: I have faith in God’s plan.
I once knew an amazing priest that changed my life. One of the characteristics was that he could barely walk. His feet and legs were dying from neuropathy. He had terrible burning pain in his feet and legs. Yet he instead of retiring, he continued his ministry and he never complained. He often told anyone who asked him about his pain that whenever he experienced this pain, he would offer it up in prayer to God for the souls trapped in purgatory.
This priest, for me, was an example of faith. He knew the mysteries of faith and spiritual truth and yet he continued to have faith and minister to others because he believed that’s what God called him to do. He didn’t think his body was falling apart or defective as his feet and legs died. He didn’t blame God. Instead, he kept the faith and knew that it was in God’s plan.
I don’t know why I am supposed to have migraine headaches, OCD, PTSD, or chronic pain. Maybe one day I will. I do know one thing, I don’t care. I have faith in God and His plan. If He wants me to be this way, then I will accept His will. I don’t need to know why. That’s what faith means.
My faith saved me. May God’s peace reside in all of our hearts.
