I woke up today feeling tired and having a headache. As I went about my day, I felt like each task I faced just piled another brick on my back and I felt myself in more pain and moving slower. By 7:30 a.m., I found my head pounding with pain so much that I was nauseous. I stopped working for a few minutes to take my migraine rescue meds and then I went back to work. I wanted to believe that everything was going to be okay, but I didn’t feel that way.
There’s this idea of “Fake it ‘til you make it”, well with faith sometimes I find myself moving forward even when I feel awful. As I continued working, I felt my heart racing, I felt my hands shaking, my thoughts raced in my mind ready to panic at any minute, and yet I believed that if I just kept working soon my medication would help with the headache and other things would fall into place. I didn’t think it would happen. I didn’t hope that it would happen. I felt like I would be falling apart and any minute. However, I just kept moving forward anyway out of faith.
Faith is about moving forward even when everything inside of you tells you that the world is falling apart. Faith is moving forward even when all proof tells you that you are wrong. It isn’t rational. It really isn’t about hope. It is just belief deep down inside. There’s something deep inside of me that I can’t explain and that I’ll keep moving forward no matter what happens until I die. That’s my faith. So, on horrible days, I just keep going because God’s with me.
My faith saved me. May God’s peace reside in all of our hearts.
