I feel like I am being tested with the idea of putting the oxygen mask on myself first and then others. My husband came down with the flu in early December. He gave it to me in the middle of December and I have been dealing with it ever since. I have been trying to get over it, but I have also been worried about taking care of family and work. So, I really haven’t stopped to take care of myself as well as I should.
Today, I found myself on the phone for a long time for work and afterward, I just had no voice left. It isn’t that I feel really bad. I just haven’t given my throat enough time to rest and now my voice box is so inflamed that I just can’t talk at all. It is like my body screaming out to me saying that I need to stop and rest.
I worry a lot about letting the people around me down. I worry about what will happen if I don’t live up to my responsibilities. It is difficult for me to realize that every crisis isn’t the end of the world. Times like these are helpful for me because they help me to learn to put my life in perspective. They help me know what is really important and most of all they help me know it’s okay to put the oxygen mask on myself first before I worry about putting it on someone else. Sometimes it is necessary.
My faith saved me. May God’s peace reside in all of our hearts.
