I just found out yesterday about a problem my relatives are having. It turns out that with this problem things aren’t going to work out and I’m very sad about it, but it isn’t my business, and it isn’t something I can control. However, the problem makes me think about faith and God.
Sometimes, just being isn’t enough. Sometimes, you have to surrender yourself to a relationship to really show commitment. For me, that lesson came early in my life. I was just twenty years old. I thought being alive and believing in God was enough. Yet, I didn’t know where I was headed, I was afraid, and I often felt overwhelmed. I had horrible panic attacks all the time and it always felt like I wasn’t going to survive them. I didn’t really want to live knowing that I would constantly feel overwhelmed and weak. Then, one day, I had a panic attack and I found out that God wouldn’t abandon me. I just needed to trust Him.
The more I learned to trust in God and His plan for me, the more my life started to work. As the years went by, I found myself really learning to surrender everything to God and to trust Him with everything. In the last few years, I have learned that I might have days where I feel overwhelmed, but I’ll be okay because nothing can overwhelm God.
It happened to me today. There’s a change in the weather and I have a pressure headache. I have been feeling sick with a cough and sore throat for several weeks. I had a stressful work day. My husband had to work late. Then, an app on my phone wouldn’t work correctly. I just wanted to fall apart and cry. I felt overwhelmed. And even if I did cry, I knew that I would be okay because God would ride that roller coaster of emotions with me. He would hold me in His arms and guide me with His eternal light. Somehow, someway, I would find my way to the next hour or the next day. I don’t even need to know how; I just need to trust in Him.
My faith saved me. May God’s peace reside in all of our hearts.
