Today, I am dealing with a challenge. My husband is working over the weekend. I am feeling sick. One of my phone apps isn’t working the way it should and I can’t figure out how to fix it. All these things are very annoying to me, and I find myself feeling anxious and irritated. However, the truth is there’s nothing really wrong with my life. I should be extremely grateful for everything in my life, and I know that I am really blessed. My husband won’t have to work after hours forever. I won’t feel bad forever. The dumb app on my phone won’t have the problem that it does forever and even if it does, it really doesn’t matter. There was a time I lived without a smart phone just fine.
My only real problem is that I am not getting everything I want exactly when I want it. In other words, life is not meeting my expectations. The problem is that life isn’t supposed to meet my expectations. I am not the center of the universe. I am not supposed to be running the show. I am supposed to remember to have humility and remember that God is in charge. Instead of getting angry and irritated when life isn’t what I expected, I should be thinking about how blessed I am. I should be thanking God for all that He has given me and ask Him to help me see which way He wants me to go next.
I know that I have freewill, but one of the things that I clearly believe is that when it feels like I am literally fighting the flow of life, it means that I’m trying too hard to make life go in the direction I want it to go instead of letting it go in the direction that God is guiding me to go. When things aren’t great, instead of getting angry and frustrated, which I do because I am only human, I am learning to take a step back and look at my life from a different perspective. I realize how blessed I really am. I realize that I am truly grateful for my life and all the people in it. Then, I take the time to pray, and I ask God to guide me because I know He knows better than I do what His plan is for me. I know as I get older, my life will take me through some extremely challenging times, but when I do go through them, I hope I will have the faith to pray and ask for God’s guidance.
My faith saved me. May God’s peace reside in all of our hearts.
