Yesterday we went to the zoo with our family. The worst part for me was feeling that the entirely experience was artificial. I have seen these zoo programs on TV that help. They let me know that all the commercialization and artificiality help the zoo to provide for the animals and also help researchers learn about the animals as well as help to continue with reproduction of the animals so that they don’t become extinct. However, the entire time that we were there, I felt like a cow in a herd being herded myself.
Then, during the middle of it all, I got the aura of a migraine in the form of a cold spell. In the middle of everyone else walking around the zoo perfectly normal, I walked around like I was in the middle of a freezer or in the middle of the north pole. I don’t know if anyone except my husband could possibly understand how I felt.
This entire week I think God has been trying to teach me a lesson and it has been hammering me over the head. I didn’t understand it. However yesterday when I felt like I was in the middle of the artic, I finally think I understood. In the middle of the zoo with my family, I might be feeling freezing cold, but it isn’t. I can’t control it and the world isn’t going to end if I am cold. So instead of falling apart, just let go flow with it even if it is painful. It’s ironic, a coincidence, whatever you want to call it, but we saw more animals and prettier animals after I was experiencing my cold spell than before. I hate to admit it, but I think maybe I will remember them more and be more thankful for the experience of see them because I had to suffer and sacrifice to see them.
My faith saved me. May God’s peace reside in all of our hearts.
