Yesterday, I felt lots of anger and fear. I didn’t know how to deal with those feelings. Then, today I started to think about the strangest thing: the 2024 election. I don’t really care about the outcome because to be honest, I don’t think any outcome is going to be great. However, there is one outcome that I think would be far worse than any of the others and lately it seems like that might happen. Instead of worrying about it though, I realize that it really isn’t something I can control. I could waste my time worrying about something I have no control over or I could enjoy the gift of life that God has given me.
Suddenly, my other situation came to mind. I can’t control anything that has to do with my mom: not when she was alive and not now with the house. I can’t continue wasting my life with anger and fear thinking my life isn’t going to be how I expected because of her. So, the way I couldn’t find yesterday was actually simply what I have learned over that last few years: let go and let God. I have to let go of all my expectations and let life be whatever it is going to be and then let God take care of me. Whatever is going to happen will happen. I can’t control it, the only thing I can change is how I respond. My lesson through over that last few days is when I feel anger and fear, life isn’t going according to my expectations. The answer isn’t to get angrier and more frustrated, the answer is to let go of my expectations. I can be a loving, patient, and kind person, if I stop trying to control that which I cannot control.
My faith saved me. May God’s peace reside in all of our hearts.
