There’s a title to a story that I really love: “You’ve known this all your life.” I don’t even remember what the story is about anymore, but I love the idea of the story. There’s a truth inside that you have known that’s been underneath the surface and it just hasn’t been spoken. Yet you’ve known this truth all your life. That’s how I feel about God.
People want me to believe that I had to be taught about God, Jesus, religion, etc. Maybe that’s true, but inside of me this truth of God, a creator, a deity, and universal truth that has been inside of me all along. No one ever taught me those things.
Recently, I have been reading about these mysteries and I have been discovering that I’m not the only one. There are others who understood and who understand that all isn’t what it seems. Maybe the reality that we are taught to accept isn’t exactly the truth of the universe and maybe we can’t accept everything our senses tell us or that institutions like religion tell us.
I can’t help thinking that there’s this huge coincidence in my life leading me to that conclusion. I was born to a family where they essentially brainwashed me or gaslighted me for years. They didn’t do it in malice. I don’t even know if they were really aware of how much they were hurting me. They were just trying to live life the best way that they could and they couldn’t face some truths about life. It was just too difficult.
Coincidentally, it happens on a greater scale, that many people can’t face the truth of life. It is too challenging, difficult, and scary. So, institutions, groups, and people brainwash, gaslight, and corrupt the truth. It happens to the point to where few people have any idea how far from the truth modern life has become. Most people just want to live their lives the best that they can. There’s a part of me that totally relates to that idea.
However, just like with my family, I can’t live my life that way. I tried to do it, and I just couldn’t. It’s something I’ve known all my life. The truth of who God really is and who I really am lives inside of me. I can’t deny it and I promised God that I would do anything and everything I could to live in that truth. And I guess when it really comes down to it, that’s the only way for me personally, that I can live my life and get through each day.
My faith saved me. May God’s peace reside in all of our hearts.
