I was so tired last night that I just couldn’t write a post. As I was lying in bed falling asleep, I realized that I had forgotten to write my post. With my OCD, I would normally force myself to get up and write. I planned to get up and write, but then I remembered that this blog is about my finding a way to live a life of faith. God doesn’t expect me to be perfect all the time.
Instead of getting up to write about faith, I turned to my husband, and we prayed together before I fell asleep. For me, that was enough. I just want to be able to focus each day on faith and think about how God helps me to get through each day.
I know it might sound ridiculous, but writing this blog every day and focusing on faith each day has changed my life. I have found my heart change in the way that I approach others, myself, and my life. I have also found my thinking change as well. The best part is that it doesn’t stop. This truly is a journey because the more I write and the more I contemplate God, the more I change. I have begun to find patience, understanding, and kindness for others, I never knew I could have, and the weirdest part is that I know I can do better if I just give myself more time. I have learned to love myself better so that I can do the same for my brothers and sisters in Christ. I have learned to forgive myself for not being perfect and by doing so I am learning to forgive my brothers and sisters in Christ. Instead of these past six years being a long journey, for me they feel like just a beginning.
I hope that I can continue on this journey as long as I can. I hope that I find my way closer and closer in communion with God, but more importantly, I hope I find my way to greater love of my brothers and sisters in Christ.
My faith saved me. May God’s peace reside in all of our hearts.
