I took my mom’s dog to the vet today. I have never liked that dog. I think the reason is my mom tried so hard to force me to like the dog. I didn’t want her to control me and so instead of liking the dog, I didn’t like her. It’s the story of my relationship with my mom. She had all these ideas about who she wanted me to be, and she tried to control me and force me into being that person. And no matter how much she pushed, I always disappointed her because I wasn’t that person. I always pushed back because I didn’t want to be controlled.
It makes me think about my relationship with God. I know He has this idea of me of what kind of person I can be, but the miraculous thing is God accepts and loves me as I am right now. I could never disappoint Him. I am exactly the person that God created me to be. I can love myself and feel good about myself knowing that I don’t have to be anything except me and God will be proud of me for who I am. And knowing that makes me want to be a better person. It makes me want to be the person that God knows I can be.
My mom never accepted me and constantly tried to control me. I never felt like I was good enough. God always accepts and gives me free will. I am always enough for God because He created me and He doesn’t make mistakes.
Love is about acceptance and letting go. I know that if I really love someone I will accept them exactly as they are and I won’t ever try to control them.
My faith saved me. May God’s peace reside in all of our hearts.
