I am trying to do a writing project and it is taking many hours of my time. It feels like a huge risk because I feel like I am putting time in myself and I don’t know if I am going to get anything out of it. I don’t know if that matters or not.
My biggest problem is that I keep feeling a huge sense of guilt. I feel like I am not being productive. I keep thinking that I need to do something, anything that contributes to other people and not just me. I just don’t see how my artistic endeavors could make a difference in the world. I want to believe that they can.
I am always writing about how if I have enough faith that miracles can happen. I want to believe that if I just believe in my art enough, then others will want to read my writing and I can spread God’s message. I hope that is true. I pray that miracle will happen.
My faith saved me. May God’s peace reside in all of our hearts.
