These days I am having lots of pressure headaches. I had one today that started with a pain in my right temple. I also felt some inflammation in my joints. I am always surprised at how much my body reacts to the weather. It isn’t just pain. The weather makes me feel anxious and just weird. When I finally decided to take my rescue meds, I felt like I had a full panic attack going. However, I noticed a difference this time.
I realized that ever since I stopped taking Xanax and started taking the attitude of embracing life, my whole attitude towards panic has changed. I still have difficulty and when it is really bad, I still believe medication can help. What I have learned is that I’m not afraid of the panic anymore. I used to be so afraid of just facing the panic attack. I was willing to do anything to avoid it, but now I know that even when it comes to the panic symptoms, I don’t need to fear feeling scared. It sounds strange, but I know that I won’t ever feel panic symptoms that are too much for me to handle. God will always be with me and He won’t give me more than I can take.
I can’t explain why. I just know deep inside that when God is with me I have nothing to fear.
My faith saved me. May God’s peace reside in all of our hearts.
