I have a chronic pain condition. The doctors won’t listen to me when I tell them about it. Every time this comes up they send me for tests, they get X-rays, and they order physical therapy. Nothing helps.
I start having pain somewhere in my body. There’s no injury. At first, it seems simple, but then, it just won’t go away. Then, it becomes part of my life. The pain will last for six months to eighteen months. It will go away almost as strangely as it appeared. It just goes. No explanation. No reason. One day it will just disappear.
During the pain cycle, it is extremely difficult. There’s not much that I can do about the pain. Pain drugs don’t help. The doctors don’t understand. Instead, I am stuck dealing with pain for a long period of time. This time it is in my left leg down near the ankle.
The only thing I can think to do is accept this situation. The pain is an uncomfortable sensation in my body meant to let me know something is wrong, except right now nothing is wrong. It is like having a short circuit in the trunk causing a tail light to blink when I haven’t turned on my signal. I can’t go to a mechanic and get it fixed. So, my choice is to accept it and pray to that Mechanic up in Heaven. I need to accept the pain for what it is and even though I don’t like it, if I find I way to live with it. If I accept that I will be living with it until sometime in June of 2024, then maybe it won’t be so bad. I pray that it won’t be too difficult this time.
My faith saved me. May God’s peace reside in all of our hearts.
